The Walk

Old age

“Old age: the crown of life, our play’s last act.”
~ Marcus Tullius Cicero

I had a lovely vacation this summer. I went to Slovenia and Croatia. I’ve visited some beautiful places and saw some impressive sceneries. When on the last day I sat on a bench in a nice park in Zagreb, thinking how grateful I am to have the chance to make this journey, I saw two women walking by. One pushing a wheelchair and one leaning on a cane. I guess the wheelchair is meant for the lady with the cane. My educated guess is that they’re in their late 70s maybe even early 80s. I couldn’t help but to follow them with my eyes.

The women walked slowly. My impression was that the lady with the cane couldn’t walk too fast and gets tired easily. They set a few steps and then they will stop to rest for a minute or two. The lady pushing the wheelchair awaits patiently for the lady with the cane to take lead and carry on. I couldn’t make out their relationship. They might be sisters or just good friends. Best friends even, I guess. They’ve definitely known each other for a long time. It’s like they are willing to stand by each other no matter what.

When I look at them, I couldn’t help but to think how their life must have been. Are they married, do they have kids, what have they endured? Are they happy? Do they have regrets? What are their biggest achievements. Are they grateful? Do they visit church every now and then or did they gave up hope and belief a long time ago?

All sort of questions crossed my mind. I would’ve loved to have a chat with them. To hear their stories. To get to know the things that they have experienced. To listen to their achievements and share their regrets, if they have any. I always think of people of old age as one big treasure chest, full of inspiration.

When I was sitting there, watching the treasure chests, my mind started to wander off. Slowly, just like the lady with the cane and it stops for a pause, too, at my past. I’ve learned to let that go a long time ago. But sometimes it still hits me. Don’t want to waste too much time in the past, I urged my mind to carry on and it wandered to my future. What will my future look like? That’s the most mysterious question no one can ever answer. My mind started to come back to me and it accompanied me again at watching the old ladies. And then it told me: make sure you don’t have regrets when you’re at that age. Live today and enjoy life! Whether it’s good or bad. Accept the things that cross your road. Be grateful for the things that you have. And keep on learning. Keep inspiring people and be inspired by life. The past gave you a present to build the future. So, live the present!

Life’s a funny thing. We’re not guaranteed a tomorrow. So, we must get the most out of it today. And if we are lucky to live till the age of the ladies in my photo we have to make sure that every day counts and that we don’t have regrets on the last day of our lives.

The women went on their way. So did I. As our ways separated I turned back a few times to watch them. They became smaller each time I turned around until eventually they’ve disappeared into the distance. This was the best scenery I’ve seen this vacation. I wish them both the best last act of their play.

I finally did it!

“It is in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.”
~ Tony Robbins

111.

11 January.

Today I’ve finally uploaded my first vlog on Youtube! I didn’t pick the date on purpose. It just happened to be this day. I already had a story and shot the footages in early December. But destiny seems to want me to have everything ready by this day. So, I can launch my vlog on a memorable date.

This is my journey to fulfilling my dreams! In September I posted a blog about what I wanted to do the most. I’ve told everyone I love to be a screenwriter and that I wanted to start a vlog on Youtube. In the mean time I have made a lot of new writers friends and even joined a film team to assist their script team. And with my first vlog online I’ve gained another mini win. I very much enjoy creating the contents and I intend to make more of them.

I’d like to create different contents about diverse subject matters and I would love to hear from you what you think of it. I love to capture every day moments of life. Moments that happen, because they happen. I urge myself to enjoy the little things that cross my roads, things that we see but might not notice. But if we pay a little more attention to it, it might make us very happy.

To me, life is about following your heart and do the things you want to do. Although it might be a bit scary, but when you dare to loose your footing for a short moment you can gain so much satisfaction when you found your balance again.

Live your life with joy and remember your dreams.

Dare to laugh even when the road of life is a bit rough.

Do the things you love the most and do it with all heart.

I invite you to come along with me on my new journey. It’ll be a very exciting one!

 

Downton Abbey, reviver of my writing spirit

“To persevere, trusting in what hopes he has, is courage in a man.”
~ Euripedes

In the past few months I’ve finished and rewritten my first screenplay. I’ve even sent it out to some screenwriting contests. I was very proud and satisfied and It gave me strength to carry on.

The idea for my first story came to me rather easily and I do strongly believe in this story. But now that it is finished I felt myself falling into a dark hole. I have another story in mind but it doesn’t feel as strong as the first one. So, I started to doubt. I doubt myself, I doubt my capabilities, I doubt my skills.

While I was self pitying I thought I might as well watch some TV series or movies to cheer myself up (and for research of course!). As I was curious why Downton Abbey was so highly recommended (and because of the wonderful Dame Maggie Smith) I started to watch it on Netflix. After the first episode I was already hooked.

It was not a very good idea, starting to watch it; I finished watching four seasons in three days! After that my mind could only think of Downton Abbey! And every character flows in my mind all day long. I think about the fate and fortune of all characters. The good ones and the ill-minded ones. That doesn’t happen often when I watch a movie of series. I did not only enjoy the serie, I actually learned a great deal from it!

Every scene of every episode is so well constructed. Every bit of it contains intrigue, suspense, conflict and mysterious twists that moves the story forward and hook the audience. Every character is so well built that makes the audience curious about all their fates. From the earl to the footmen, from the ladies to the kitchen maids. Every story line is just so fabulously written. Watching the serie is almost like you’re a part of it yourself!

It could discourage a novice writer like me. Because watching such a masterpiece can make a novice writer, who struggles with story construction and writing, feel very small. But the odd thing is, I don’t feel that way! Downton Abbey was a wonderful gift to me (or rather, a subscription on Netflix was a wonderful gift I gave myself). It gave me courage to persevere writing. Julian Fellowes has shown me the tricks of how a good story should be and what good scenes need in order to push the story forward. He gave me strength to keep on constructing stories. And I just hope that one day I will have such a masterpiece of my own that people will love to watch.

 

Liz Gilbert chimes in

“Done is better than good.”
~ Carole Gilbert

When I heard about the new book of Elizabeth Gilbert I knew it wasn’t coincidence. It was meant to be for me to read this book. “Big Magic” gives ons advise on how to live a creative life. The first thing I did was grabbing my iPad and made an online order for this book.

For a few weeks now I was stuck on my project. I’ve been doubting whether the screenplay I’m currently working on is good enough. I doubted about the originality of my story. And last but not least lack of confidence just became even worse.

And then Liz Gilbert chimes in. She wrote in “Big Magic” that one has to embrace creativity. She teaches her readers how to keep close with creativity. She explains that it’s not about failure nor success. If you really want to pursue a creating life you just have to work with it! Let the flow go. Allow it to be there. Don’t block it just because you think you suffer from it.

Just create your art and it doesn’t matter what reactions it will trigger. There will be people who loves your work. There will also be people who hates your work. It doesn’t matter. All that matters is how you feel about your work. How you feel when you are creating your work. How you feel if you don’t. How it feels when you finish it. As long as you keep creating you will feel the magic.

I’m halfway through the book and I already feel inspired. I’ve put aside my project for a really long time now. That’s because I didn’t know how to carry on. I felt like inspiration was gone and creativity took a holiday. They both left me. Then I realised that it was really me who left them. I pushed them away by telling myself I’m not good enough. That was in a way to tell inspiration and creativity that I don’t trust them. That must’ve really hurt.

I’ve made it up with them now. I told myself no matter what I will keep writing. Because I really love writing. It doesn’t matter if what I write is crap of brilliant. I will keep doing it! And I told creativity that I need him. And I would love to work with him. I apologised for the times I’ve let him down just because I don’t know how to put order to the chaos in my head. I promised I won’t do that anymore. I will keep writing, keep creating even if I don’t know what to write. If I could just keep practising I believe creativity will stay with me and help me. And that’s what really matters. I don’t want creativity to leave me. I will walk with him side by side from now on. I will talk to him, ask him for help and stick with him always.

As Elizabeth Gilbert pointed out in her book; there are too many unfinished works on this world. I intend to finish mine and start a new one and finish that one too. And there will be more to come! Do it people. Finish you creative work. It doesn’t matter if it is bad or brilliant. Just get it done! And feel the satisfaction.

Thank you Liz Gilbert for a wonderful book with invaluable advise!

More on Elizabeth Gilbert: Elizabeth Gilbert official website

Hear, see & do.

“I hear and I forgetIMG_5122
I see and I remember
I do and I understand”
~ Confucius

Confucius was a wise man. I would very much like to learn from this master. Fortunately, we can still find his quotes on internet more than 2000 years later.  These quotes are of very invaluable value and they inspire a lot of people for sure. At least, I’m inspired by them.

I hear and I forget.
It’ll struck almost every person, not just writers, that one will be hit by a sudden thought and it’s so important that one has to remember it. And like almost every person, one will think: that’s okay, I can remember that for later. But, by later, that thought is most likely disappeared. Gone. Vanished!  It happens to me a lot. That’s why I always keep a notebook and a pen with me everywhere I go. I literally write down everything I hear and see and save it for later.

I see and I remember.
Nowadays most of us have cameras on our phones. The camera app is the most frequently used app on my phone. I take pictures of every interesting thing that cross my path. It happens to me everywhere; when I do groceries or have coffee with a friend or picking up my kid from school. When I look back at the images I will relive the moment when I took that picture. If I stay in that state of mind, creativity will flow like streaming water. Very useful to write stories.

I do and I understand.
This is the moment that I bring the above two into practice. When I get home with a bunch of new notes and pictures I will sit down and start to structure them. I keep a folder on my computer to put all the stuff in it that I want to keep and I will delete the things that I don’t want. Because, too much info will confuse me. So, I just keep the special things. Then, when I get back to my work , I will look into the folder first to find the sources I need and continue my writing or start a new project.

What are your tricks on writing? Please share with me!